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Anyone following me on Twitter or Gchat (waves to [info]la_directora, [info]nex0s, and [info]fei_hong) know that I've been doing rather painful, deadline-driven work. Actually, it's the kind of work I did for the first 10 years of my career in web development/multimedia development/Internets-smartypantsness. It's fun, challenging work: coding, interpreting a design that either I or another graphic designer created, refined, and got approved by the client. I just happen to not have had to do nearly as much of it since I went to work for El Hugamundo Gigantico Company as a team lead. Mostly what I do now is go to meetings, make lists, check things off lists, try to predict when things will get done, explain why things did not get done when I predicted they would get done, write memos, send emails, and tell team members and vendors to do stuff.

I love working with vendors. It's like being the recipient of excellent customer service but without having to fork over my own cash.

I love telling other people what to do. I'm sure you're really surprised to hear this. In the past two years however, I've also discovered that managing involves more than just telling people what to do. Employees, especially highly skilled programmers, often won't just do what you tell them to do. They want to know why. And you'd better have a damn good answer or they'll find a way to not do it.

The good thing about getting back to this kind of work is that it shows me point-blank how fucking difficult it is to code. Coding is a creative act. Anyone who has actually coded, scripted, or programmed knows this. The other so-called "creatives," who draw pictures and write words, like to laugh when a programmer busts out with that claim (I can think of one particular retreat with the publications department of a large travel company), but that's just because they're threatened by the idea that they might be irrelevant. As a former English major, I know all about that fear. And not only is coding a creative act, but it's being creative in a language that changes a hell of a lot faster than English, or French, or Chinese.

These last two weeks have also really impressed on me the awesomeness of my team when it comes to actually making deadlines. I wish I could say the same. Of course they hem and haw and hedge their bets, but I also let them know I'm going to pad the timelines a bit in my project plan. Because shit goes wrong. And trying to predict how long it will take to develop a particular application is a bit like trying to predict how much money I'll need to invest if I want to retire at age 65 (hahahahaha) without having to eat beans and rice for the rest of my life. IT is fundamentally chaotic, and the more complex the systems, the more chaotic it becomes. And we live in a world with very, very complex systems. Cf. teh intarwebs.

The good news is that the company I currently work for understands that stuff happens and deadlines need to be extended. I've been working flat-out to try to get something ready for release this Friday. But as the week wore away and the time allotted for actual QA got smaller and smaller (now you understand why so many Microsoft upgrades have more bugs than an organic strawberry patch), I could feel my blood pressure rising.

Just this afternoon, I learned that the event that required the deadline has been pushed back a couple weeks. Which means that my deadline suddenly went from OMG MUST MAKE IT CANNOT PUSH IT BACK NO SLEEP TILL BROOKLYN to well, maybe ok, another week or so. Also, the business owner initially did not want to spend any more money on outside vendors, which is why I ended up coding the whole thing myself. But when push came to shove, they were willing to consult with the @w3$ome design-build firm that helped us with wireframes and visual designs on some thorny CSS-related issues.

Which means that stressed-out Okelle who thought she was going to have to miss Army Guy's birthday dinner tonight is suddenly happy Okelle who has enough time to finish her work. And everybody likes a happy Okelle.

Okay, okay.... career meme (baaa baaa)

  • Sep. 14th, 2007 at 1:00 PM
And I still want to smack a bitch
Go to Careercruising.com
Log in with nycareers/landmark
Answer the Career Matchmaker questions (39 -- takes about 5-10 min)
Post the top 10 jobs.

I posted the top 20 because my actual job (sort of) is listed at number 11, and my ambition since childhood at number 16. Huh. I've been wanting to start a webcomic for about three or four years but haven't been able to get over my fear of not knowing how to do something perfectly.

Oh great and powerful Oz, what is my destiny? )

Five Things

  • Aug. 22nd, 2007 at 10:36 AM
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  1. Good news for [info]la_directora: As evidence of a major shift in Spain's attitude toward animal rights and violence, Spain's state-run TV service has decided to stop showing bullfights at times when children might be watching. I wonder if they allow lesbian kisses? Full story from The World here. Scroll down to "Spanish TV cancels bullfight coverage"

  2. The Goddess is alive and magic is afoot. Evidence of older, female-centered rituals exist in the Islamic tradition, too. The description of Zar (or Zaar) music in the last segment of the same show listed above sounds awfully familiar. It's led by women, it builds to a fever pitch or trance, it has healing qualities, it's designed to get the participants in touch with their own spirit, or the spirits, or The Spirit. It's familiar because it's the same thing I've been doing in ritual here in the US for well over ten years. It's also similar to what I know of Sufi ritual.

    A Google search on the topic turns up mixed results. These are three I found interesting:

  3. Okay, so I really dug last night's show of the The World. There was a great story on women in combat in Iraq. The segment includes excellent interviews with a number of female soldiers profiled in Band of Sisters, a book written by journalist Kirsten Holmstedt about women in combat situation. Military law still states that women cannot fight "in combat," but as Holmstedt notes, "in Iraq, the front lines are everywhere--and everywhere in Iraq women in the U.S. military fight."


  4. Daily Dharma quote about right livelihood:

    Right Livelihood Today
    Right Livelihood appears to be harder to practice these days than in
    the time of the Buddha. The rule is still the same: Right Livelihood
    is organizing one's financial support so that it is nonabusive,
    nonexploitive, nonharming. However, these days what is abusive and
    exploitive is not necessarily self-evident. When the Buddha taught,
    unwholesome livelihood categories were easy to distinguish.
    Soldiering, keeping slaves, manufacturing weapons and intoxicants--all
    were on the proscribed list. In our time, soldiers sometimes serve as
    peacekeepers. It's hard to know the wholesomeness of all the products
    of any corporation, corporate mergers being what they are. Who knows
    what else is being manufactured by my detergent company's
    subsidiaries? . . . For me, a complete picture of wholesome Right
    Livelihood is even larger than the proscriptions that reflect external
    choices. Wholesome internal choices--healthy attitudes about one's
    work--also contribute to mental happiness and peace of mind.
    Everyone's livelihood is an opportunity for self-esteem.
    -Sylvia Boorstein, It's Easier Than You Think
    from Everyday Mind, edited by Jean Smith, a Tricycle book
    http://www.tricycle.com/issues/2_478/dailydharma/4044-1.html

    This is a question I struggle with quite a good deal. Anyone who saves for retirement by investing in mutual funds may inadvertently be funding a company that participates in icky things like warmongering or child labor. I've looked into the new lines of "socially responsible" investment funds, but find that their rate of return is less than stellar. And one still needs to wonder about who decides what company is socially responsible. They tend to be heavy on the tech stocks, which leads to extra volatility.

    Right livelihood is why I refused a gig at Raytheon, a defense contractor and pretty big employer here in the Boston area. But defense contractors often come up with new technologies that substantially improve one's quality of life--and I'm not just talking Tang. My second-generation-immigrant grandfather spent his life working at Lockheed, which makes both passenger aircraft and war planes.

    Boorstein's notion of "wholesome internal choices" is helpful. And one must be centered and well to do good effectively in the world. But it's also easy to become complacent and believe that living well and taking care of oneself is enough. It's not.



  5. I received some feedback recently regarding my communication style, which was described as "abrasive." While opportunities for self-improvement abound, I find myself caught in the same conundrum many women in business face. Early on in my career, a friend of mine suggested I read a book called Hardball for Women, which did an excellent job at helping me adapt to a culture that was originally made for men, by men, and about men--I'm talking about the business world. It helped me to understand the different ways that men and women communicate, and I began to modify my communication style as a result. But here's where the dilemma sets in: they see my tits. So they expect different things from me than they would of someone with no tits (or man-boobs). A man expresses anger or impatience, he's seen as powerful or important. A woman expresses anger or impatience, she's seen as out of control or moody. And God forbid you mention these different expectations in the actual business world! That's playing the gender card!

    The tightrope, the challenge, the opportunity for personal growth (or AFGO, as they call it in some circles), is this: to appear competent, powerful, in control, while still personable and approachable. It's fun, kids! Now you try!



Partners IS Summer Internships

  • May. 4th, 2007 at 1:14 PM
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This summer marks the second IS Internship Program. Here is a link to the open internships:

http://isintranet.partners.org/template.aspx?pageId=15

If you know of any students looking for IS internships this summer, please have them apply online at www.partners.org. Or, comment to this message and I'll tell you where to email their resume.

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I started working at Partners Healthcare System in August 2006, after a recruiter lured me here with the promise of excellent benefits and an actual for-real 40-hour work week. Partners was formed in 1995 when Mass General Hospital and Brigham and Women's Hospital joined up to share administrative costs. It is now the largest employer in Eastern Massachusetts, with about 40,000 employees at member hospitals, physician organizations, and research organizations. It's pretty cool to say that I work for one of the top 10 hospitals in the country.

Some new job openings look really interesting if you're into design and usability. See below for descriptions and information on how to apply. If you're interested, contact me and I can tell you what the salary range is for those job grades (pretty comfortable!).

NOTE: LMR is one of the electronic medical records systems used at Partners entities.

Usability Specialist, LMR Product Design - Job Grade: 640

Reporting to: Qi Li

The usability specialist will assist with LMR product design efforts to improve LMR product design quality, usability, user adoption, workflow support, and time to market. With the new IS organization structure, this role is critical to help the LMR Product Design team be accountable and deliver high quality designs. Drive system level design, architecture and requirements related to usability and user interfaces. Working on User Centered Design principles, the primary focus is on the front half of the system, driving the front-end and the user workflow / user interface side of the platform and products.

For more information go to: Usability Specialist, LMR Product Design </p>

Project Coordinator, LMR Product Design - Job Grade: 640

Reporting to: Qi Li

General Summary/Overview Statement

The project coordinator will assist with LMR product design efforts to improve LMR product design quality, usability, user adoption, workflow support, and time to market. With the new IS organization structure, this role is critical to help the LMR Product Design team be accountable and deliver high quality designs. Manage product design, prototype development, usability assessment, UI standard adoption, and coordination with product development teams for ongoing projects that require participation of the LMR product design team.

For more information go to: Project Coordinator, LMR Product Design


User Interface Analyst, LMR Product Design - Job Grade: 625

Reporting to: Qi Li

The user interface analyst will assist with LMR product design efforts to improve LMR product design quality, usability, user adoption, workflow support, and time to market. With the new IS organization structure, this role is critical to help the LMR Product Design team be accountable and deliver high quality designs. Create highly usable application user interface for prototype development efforts. Working on User Centered Design principles, the primary focus is on the front half of the system, driving the front-end and the user workflow / user interface side of the platform and products.

For more information go to: User Interface Analyst, LMR Product Design


User Interface Engineer, LMR Product Design - Job Grade: 625

Reporting to: Qi Li

The user interface engineer will assist with LMR product design efforts to improve LMR product design quality, usability, user adoption, and time to market. With the new IS organization structure, this role is critical to help the LMR Product Design team be accountable and deliver high quality designs. The analyst will support the development of visual and testable prototypes that portray the software user interface, features, workflow, usage models and functions in a non-working prototype format to refine the software interventions prior to programming by the core LMR development team.

For more information go to: User Interface Engineer, LMR Product Design


Usability Analyst, LMR Product Design - Job Grade: 625

Reporting to: Qi Li

Will assist with LMR product design efforts to improve LMR product design quality, usability, user adoption, workflow support, and time to market. With the new IS organization structure, this role is critical to help the LMR Product Design team be accountable and deliver high quality designs. Support usability assessment, workflow assessment, and participate in user centered design for key design projects. Maintain LMR user interface style guide and participate in Partners user interface standard committee. Lead full usability analysis of key projects including both prototype design work in CIRD and alpha/beta/GA products.

For more information go to: Usability Analyst, LMR Product Design

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From Robert Half International (the corporation behind Creative Group) and Careerbuilder.com

http://www.globalknowledge.com/training/customgo.asp?id=15566&pageid=29

They made me fill out a survey first, of course. Bastages.

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Gone at the speed of broadband

  • Aug. 24th, 2006 at 10:17 AM
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Did a little reading this morning about the kerfuffle surrounding that Forbes article quoting "social scientists" who claim that career women make lousy wives. Because, you know, education and careers for women is SOOOO 20th-century.

After a ton of negative response from all kinds of readers, Forbes took the article down. And reposted it with a rebuttal. Gawker sums up the content reposition brilliantly.

This response article amuses me:
Nine reasons to marry a power whore

And all of it reminds me yet again why I am so relieved that I will never, ever, ever have to live with an individual carrying that much testosterone in his bloodstream.

This is the real reason why some heterosexuals can't seem to wrap their brains around gay marriage. I mean, whose job is it to take out the garbage? Who does the dishes? Who picks up the socks?

Sunday... home... ahh...

  • Aug. 20th, 2006 at 4:28 PM
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Went to Kripalu this weekend. Had a lovely time. Have sore, happy muscles and a body that feels clean from eating healthy food for two days. Would like to use the weekend as a springboard for getting back into a consistent yoga practice. The instructors at Kripalu reminded me what yoga used to be about for me, before I took some of those glorified-aerobics-type yoga classes they'd been offering at my old gym: a spiritual practice, a mind-body connection, a stretching to the edge of sensation, a daily movement toward an ideal that's never totally possible to achieve. Breathing and staying in the moment. So if I could find a class like that in town, I think I'd be happy. And driving home, I actually found myself seriously visualizing what it might be like to do cardiovascular exercise in my new neighborhood. You know, the basic speed-walking variety instead of the get-the-bike-out-of-the-basement-and-drive-someplace kind. Create a new playlist for the iPod and I'd be good to go. One circuit of Spy Pond could certainly be a nice, vigorous workout, and one I could do in all weather.

I start my new job tomorrow.

And in other news, this just arrived the mail!

::happy dance::

Wannabe in a fluffy pink dress

  • Jun. 9th, 2005 at 5:25 PM
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::originally posted June 9, 2005, locked to friends. Made public March 21, 2008 because the project ended a long time ago and because I'm not the only woman who suffers from impostor syndrome::

Actually, I don't remember getting to wear that many fluffy pink dresses. I think I was pink-and-frill-deprived as a child.

But I am feeling rather like that little girl (say around 4 years old) standing awkwardly in her party outfit while all the other little children gather around the birthday girl with cake and cookies and open the presents. My present is handmade and no one really appreciates it. It's not as shiny as the things that other people bought at toy stores with their parents' money.

Okay. What is my point? It must be the iced coffee talking. I finally get my afternoon second-wind, and I'm straight into lala land. It's decaffeinated coffee, even.

The point is, the thing I really wanted to say is, I'm looking at this sweet little application I wrote with text-file arrays in PHP, and thinking about how very very soon I won't have to renumber the con-sarned array [bracketnumber] thingies anymore because the whizkid smarty guys we hired to build a REAL application, with mySQL back-end and smarty templates and la-di-da-di-da will be done with it very soon. And then my little pokey application will go the way of that hand-woven Barbie canopy bed I made for my best friend Myrna in the fifth grade.

I know she liked it, though. I know we really were best friends.

For a while.

Dammit.

I want to learn how to make what the big kids are making, though! I want to build websites with db-driven back-ends! Why am I so afraid?

For the same reason I used to be afraid of PHP, or ASP, or Photoshop, or HTML, even, I suppose. Because it's an unknown. Because I might make a *gasp* mistake!

The good news is that I am really truly totally taking tonight off. No dates. No parties. No groups to organize. Okay, I have to go feed Loki at Quick's house, and will have to spend some time with him because he is being psychosomatic kitty. But after that I am going home! I will cook dinner! I will clean my apartment! Because this weekend, starting tomorrow afternoon, is going to be a complete madhouse. In a good way, though. I'm looking forward to it.

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